With this independence I enjoy the freedom of being my own boss and work from home. Some of the advantages of working from home are; less overhead expenses, ability to work any hours I choose, I don't have to dress up every day and I am not stuck working within the same four walls. I can decide to take a break and go for a walk and refresh my psyche. Some of the disadvantages of working from home are; my house is in constant disarray, my studio is my kitchen, my tools and materials are stored in plastic bins and my office is the living room couch. I sit on the couch surrounded by papers, notebooks magazines and a computer on my lap. With all this messiness, I have FREEDOM.....and I love it.
I began actually living my dream of "living the creative life" in January, 2012. This lifestyle has brought me the luxuries of freedom and flexibility as well as the strain of STRESS and ANXIETY. I have constant worry and anxiety about not having a stready stream of income. I worry and stress over creating, (what do I want to paint, what medium do I want to work in, will people like what I create????). I worry about not being "good enough". I stress and get anxious over calling leads and plugging my workshops. I agonize over my workshop content (I stay up till all hours making sure everything is perfect). The list goes on and on..........It seems ironic to me, that now that I am finally able to live the creative lifestyle I have been so hungry for, it also brings with it a whole new set of unexpected fears and anxities to contend with.
I am learning slowly, to accept fears. My new mantra is "face the fear and do it anyway". I am trying not to allow my fears to rule my world. I will continue to face my fears, acknowledge that they are there and do it anyway.........
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